i hate the feeling that nobody has time for you. and i hate flaky people. bleah.
we were dancing at guy's last night, and ariel was in a terrible mood. i was joking around and saying that i get jealous when other people dance with guy, because he's usually my dance partner and we move really well together. ariel had one of those smiles on that looks like it was glued over a snarl. she said, "you really need to get over that, naomi. it makes other people have a hard time dancing with him." and i said that i hadn't even really danced with him that often recently, because i hadn't, and she snapped back at me, "actually, you really have."
i feel bad for her.
i spent all of thursday night with chase and guy. we went to an opera, "manon lescaut", and then we watched this truly bizarre miyazaki film called "pon poko". it's about shapeshifting raccoons. they can turn their testicles into blankets. it was awesome.
while the movie was going, guy and chase traded off playing world of warcraft, and they would alternately come and sit next to me on the couch. guy wrapped his arm around my legs, and kept it there. he doesn't usually touch me for no reason. it was interesting... but nice.
ellie's been not calling back. i'm trying not to take it personally, because i see her at school every day. dane is her boyfriend, and i need to respect their time together. even if i haven't spent any time outside of school with her in like a week. i feel like it's where we were in february of last year- something's bothering her and she won't tell me what. i think i just need to trust that she'll tell me if there's a problem. she is my best friend. we're not going to fall apart again.
naomi